By Kelli Campbell

“Keep not thou silence, O God: hold not thy peace, and be not still, O God.” Psalm 83:1

 There have been several times in my life, as I prayed, that I felt God was not listening to me ~ he was silent. I felt God had abandoned me and did not care about my desires, things that were very important to me. I would pour my heart out to Him, crying many tears, and yet I would receive no answer. Not even a little hint of an answer. Sometimes situations grew worse. There were even times I got a little “miffed” at God. He is God! He can do anything yet He would not answer my prayer. Once, I counseled with a very godly lady and told her I prayed but I did not understand prayer.

I know all the Bible verses:

“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” Psalm 37:4

“And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.” Matthew 21:22

“But I know, that even now whatsoever thou wilt ask of God, God will give it thee.: John 11:22

“And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.” John 14:13

“If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.” John 14:14

“If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.” John 15:7

I asked and I asked, and asked again and again. No answer! I believed, I fasted, I delighted, I praised God, I memorized Scripture. Only silence!

As much as was in me, I was doing every thing, I think, God wanted me to do. I read my Bible every day, I prayed every day, I have lead many people to Jesus, I helped others, I was training my son to love God, and I try to be a good wife. I really do love God with all of my heart. Again, silence!

Do you not love me God? Am I not good enough? Wanting a baby is not wrong. Wanting God to heal my husband, who is writhing in pain every day, is not wrong. Wanting a bad situation to change is not wrong. Wanting my family members and friends to accept Jesus as their Saviour is not wrong. God, why are you silent?